*I just Took a stroll around UKM*
underneath the moonlight..underneath the glimmering star
a black sky of regret...
life is a maze...collaterally love is a riddle...
many has lost yet countless has outshined
but
where am i??

its funny how i notice this kinda small stupid thing
perhaps one of these days, i will realize that..
our days together are actually numbered..
and this sort of little things,
is actually makes it all memorable...makes it complete, whole
like the nuts and bow
that hold the pieces together!!


what can i do with them all?
take every moment..and own them??.. and never stop trying
its all that i can do
use what is given to me...
will i ever be tired of trying??
perhaps..someday...

but,
I just simply cant
give me a reason to fight the feeling that's nothing here for me
that's i'm worth it
its not that easy...
i know its all up to me...alone


*sengyee...all the best on the 28th!!
u have my unconditional support!!*

finally...I've decided to let it all out...
*sigh*
and I've confess everything...

DUMB
yeah..kinda thought so at the moment...
but still...
Its done...
&
..........

hope u guys wont try jeopardize my trust...
*finger-crossing*

should i??



DAMN...
I'm such a coward....

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY

LIK SER....

hAzelnUt cakE...
sprinkle with some lurvE...

yayA...banAna eating baNanA...
weirD = ="

claSS photo 2008/2009

last row (from left): Hollywood next angelina joliE, ms.BRAcelet, moOdy, Malaysia next TOP supermodel, the sad gal,
middle row (from left) :mr.shY, ketua pengaRah, jackie cHan another missing child, NewYOrk skincare model
1st row (from left) : tonG sampaH, the egG , mE

family pOtraiT take 1

familY potraiT take 2!!

loL...




"I am the great grandma with my hubby die don't kw when. so my daughter Kylie who called 'lao mu ji' married to yao zu 'lao gong ji' and gave birth to Tecky who is a mistake in genetic, called 'Da gong ji' and unfortunately peng be the 1st child of him with don't know what hooker outside the chicken kandang and being named 'xiao ji'. Tan Tan is the second most unfortunate person cause he never been born, still inside the egg becoz the sins that tecky made. So the name 'Tan Tan' gave. following are siblings of peng and tan tan who are ven ven, amy, wei lun and tong geat. they all called 'xiao xiao ji'. There are some truth behind this family that seldom people know about..its the real mum of peng and tan tan being ate by a big grey wolf, tecky's ex-roomate, Seng Long. so pity peng and tan tan.but as you know there is not only a wolf that exist but there are two..another is 'Big Colour Wolf'..you would scared by the truth..its sengyee... Weird to say that our chicken family have any relation with Moo Moo family. One day a lost Moo Moo called semyow come to our family and become part of us..another generation with cow and chicken' child?called Cowken? who know?its really complicated.."

likser 2009

huh??wondering what they are doing??

lights off....

3

2

1

cheeRs to our friendshiP..and whatever
the future holds for us...

ApRil sucks, its only the beginning of the month,
& i'm at my worst condition, all torn up...,
over-whelmed..
Its the downfall of Koh tEck-y...
dead & gone

what have happeneD to me??
where does it all gone wrong??
how coulD this happen...!?
i myself could never answer them truthfully...
do i worth that...
that type of "kindness"...
do i deserve that??
i'm just simply DUMB!!
Koh TEck-y u sucks!!
u really do!!!
you are just a pervert ..
who loves to crack pervert jokes
that makes everyone HATEs yoU even moRe..



I just got fed up...trying to cope with everyone
everyone demand...
everyone's time
weird behavior...
but do they?
do they understand mine??
do they ever think on my behalf?
perhaps they do..
but sorry
i dont feel them!!
yeah,i'm "anything" kinda person
but still
i'm still just a human!!

I just wonder...
why?
just WHY??
how can you do this to me!!
simply because you have a bad hair day
doesnt mean that you can let it out on me
....
by cutting me out...
blaming me WRONG
for everything that i've done...
in fact u never do that to anyone else
perhaps..i'm that STUPID!!
that IMPERFECT
that give you an eye sore!!
i know i'm just not
an APPLE to the eye
compare to them!!

.....maybe
you just dont know...how
disappointing and...
no-word-to-describe
i am

i just dont understand..
why am i WRONG
EVERYTIME
..EVERYTIME...
i was never right...
was never the one!!
but to them...
....
u say you understand them
&
trust them...
&
bla bla bla...

from now on ...
i make a promise to myself
i wont be that dumb ass again
AGAIN!!
its ur guys occasion..
&
why should i be anxious for you
meanwhile you are not co-operating as well!
Why should i care...there is no reason!!
since you treat them so good..
and how well u understand them
perhaps they can do something
understand-able for you...
good luck for that...
for me..
thats it..

-------the END-------

*sorry for the selfish statement*
but at this state of mind...
i just cant take it anymore
SORRY!!

denial is the sinnest way of running away...hiding
i have a confession..
yeah,
i do
...miss him...

i miss...
the time we spend together...
the time he woke me up every morning
the time he take us to the morning market
the time he bring me for breakfast...
the time he took & pick me up for tuition
.....
yeah
its all what he has done to me...to us
his sacrifice...
his unconditional lovE
his warmth care
&
his undying respect
&
love
i have for him!!
i really miss you
from the bottom of my heart!

sometimes it really makes me wonder...
what if...
what if just you are still around
things will be perhaps,
no..i'm confident..
things will be definitely
be better!!

regret
&
bitterness
is what i feel right now
for not showing my care
my affection
&
my loyalty
to you...
.....
while i still have the chance!!

sorry my dear...
i will love you..
forever&always
&
you will always be remembered
as
the greatest grandfather
i ever had!!
misses you here always...

somewhere...somehow
i do really hope...
you are in a better place...
find your happiness...
and for sure
i'm confident
you are watching us from up above...
...a shining warm beacon light...
enlighten our path...
i really love you!!

....kung...take care!!
&
i will myself!!

its cheng minG today,
everytime, i'm there
a rush of emotion of regret
flow through my vein...
...feeling of bitterness...
of regretness
..for not...
be there when you needed me...
you are always there..
when i am helpless
lost...
you found me...
& lead me back
strongly!!

anyhow...
the past is history..
looking ahead is the best way...
kung..dont worry
i will live my life to the fullest...
remembering every moment we have
together
&
celebrate all my victory
with you!!

i misses you
a lot!!

fEel like shiT today!! tired, exhausted..over-whelmed by the fact how

irresponsible one can be!! Learning the fact that

he is not interested in co-operating, i've tried all my best to work alonE

in the dark..still,

he has no sense of appreciation...it really makes me wonder..

am i stupid, idiot or what?

the fatigue, like a leech keep sucking and draining the enthusiaasm out of me..

leaving me numb and short-tempered..

perhaps..

the busy week is the one who needs to blame..

honestly,

i really doesnt mean for you to see my dark side, tan yEe

but the truth to be told...

i really hope u can keep mum wot i've told you

in the car..

let it be buried down and undeR

perhaps,

i'm not the way you thought i am

maybe,

u are terrified to explore...

but it really makes me wonder..

aren' friends suppose to touch hands

&

heart?

like what yewjoe quote " i really need to dive into the pool, leave the world

for a moment, the burden weight on my shoulder...

just be selfish for a moment..own the time all by myself.."

anyway..its friday now.. &

meaning yeah..rest time!!

looking forward for tonight dinneR with yewfai and ngankEE

really have a rough week ..

a week that make me realize nice people

are

idiot people!!

nevertheless..it teaches me to peserve and stay strong

and yeah

the best way to handle irresponsible group membeR!!

u guys suck!!

"Production of Maleic Anhydride"
we rock you...lol!!
realley have a great time co-operating with you guys in this term intergrated project...
though my contribution is not significant,at least i think..but still
than you...
love you all!!

afteR presenting, about at 6 p.m we (likseR,leepeNg,taNYEe,YEWJoE & Me)
"teleport" ourselves to aLamanda,PutraJaya!!
well...the "teleportation" kinda slow...due to tanyEe slogan..
"driVe safeLy"
imagine...40km/h =.=" my goD

we catch a flicK there..12 rounds..quite interesting, hmm..just that the

1. the camera man has a shaky hand..dizzy!!
2. john cEna expression is..numb i suppose
3. FBI sucks in the film...compare to NBC's 24 series which they rocks!!

on the way back after dropping off penG...seR asked yee an intriguing question bout
him & peng...
well...things just started to happen,
so...
we juz have to wait & see

at the momenT, i'm wasting my time, at Kolej Ungku omAr foyer,
accompanying
sengyEe & joE


wash their dirtty, smelly clotheS!!


actually, there is something bothering my mind in the mean time...
am i too straight..too blunt sometimes
some say that, my friends admired me
&like spending time with me
cause of my
BluntnesS
in facT, i'm quite jealous of hiM...perhaps
its because...
i don't know...
just a feelinG!!

5 friends in a proton saga embarks on a journey to a place

where...

hoRse rules...

a golden pAlacE of horseS

somwheRe in level 3

bEtween these numbEr

2 weirdO

&

3 barbarian...

inhabitant in these two rooms...

...the story begins...
long long time ago....

there is a bunch of happy kids...
an emotional gal,
a pair of weirD "twins"
an egg
&
a fatty

living in the castle..

by the "noisy" waterfalll

n like to ss (syok sendiri)

on the 1st night...they have wendy sister's burger
as their dinner...
her shrimp burger, rOCKS!!

back in the chamber...
wild things happen...

it continues....

n getting WORSED!!

getting prepared to a waR...

the enemy...we must defeat the steamboat...
show no fear..
defeat him with our lethal "weapon"
appetite!!

after the war...

be contented with peace...see what war can do to us!!

going back with VICTORY
we are the champion my friend~~
we'll keep on fighting till the end...
we are the CHAMPION~~

exploring the mysterious palace...with our big horsE

looK!!

caught in a moment *blink*

introducing the palace...

the battle of the best!!

i dont know wot is this..but the passer-by keep throwing stuff inside..
i wonder can the stuff be eaten??
*blink*

saying goodbye is tough..but at least we have something good to
keep in our mind...dont we *wink*